cling to your pride

 

 

A great figure or physique is nice, but it’s self-confidence that makes someone really sexy

 

 

the gift of self-love

i want to see the world for myself

Know yourself fully before making promises to another. Make many mistakes so you’ll know the right decision when it really matters. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often, without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself up to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Never mislead anyone, especially yourself. Have the courage to admit when you’re wrong. Awaken to the brilliance of ordinary moments. See goodness in the world. Strive to be your best. Be bold. Be grateful. Be wild and gloriously free. Be you.

breaking the rules

12.30 am

…gawdd, i’m a fool.

sobs.

tired song, on a tired radio

I had a dream last night, and i watched this dream like a movie.

I didn’t want to wake up =(

5 things i should do after this:

5) Prepare for ESL Mid-term tomorrow
4) Watch piano tutorial on youtube.
3) Study accounting.
2) Eat something healthy.
1) Get off this laptop.

goooood morning!

i love it when i wake up in the morning and get silly messages on my fon <3

 

kaka: i’m stuck on youuuuu!

tasha: haha. omg da teacher’s day song we sang in sec 4? hahaha

kaka: hahha! yea babey. damn my tution kid thinks im married cz im wearing a ring!

tasha: hahahaha say yes u’re married

kaka: no! omg i shld stop misleading ppl. i look so young only 20! can’t believe age catches up with me so fast!!!

tasha: hahahaha u look 25 luh.

kaka: wah lau. no i dun! omg u just depress my day. i wanna look 18 or 16!! should go for botox

tasha: hahahaha. of cos u don’t dear. we r still young ok! lalalala~

kaka: of cz! i’m gonna eat more fruits!!!

tasha: me too n drink loads of plain water!

kaka: hahaha. yea babey!

tasha: hahahaha. okay ((:

malikka begum, you’re such a retard luh babe.

but i guess that’s prolly why we both click well (:

it’s finally friday!

Blackberry rocks my socks so much!!! (((: hehe. ok, i know i’ve been using it for like almost 2 months now, and i prolly should be saying that 2 months ago. hehh. but goodness i’m loving it more n moreee each day. cos like finally… i made use of my BB Messenger! haha. shout YAY for me pls! hahaha. thank you, thank you. lol. ok yea, BBM is so cool and it’s fudging free! hehh. got a number of contacts already and chatted with a few today, both local and international! sooo funn. haha. but sadly, it’s just for BB users cos of the BB pin. sighs. sooo my dear beloved friends… please get your own BB ya and BB pin me. it’s really awesome! hehehe. lalalala~

anyways, i seriously gotta stop cabbing to school. i’m soo broke =/ …had marketing lecture in the afternoon today. i always enjoy his lectures. heh. learnt quite a number of marketing skills. it’s really inspiring how these advertisers can make a want so powerful that it becomes a need. waahh. hopefully these skills i’ve learnt can help me in my future business eh. heh. insyaAllah.

met up with atisya after school for dinner. had planned to eat at al-azhar at bukit timah, but somehow… we got lost. hahahaha. yea i know right. for goodnes sake. i’ve eaten at that place for like a gazillion times and i couldn’t believe we actually lost our way? tsk. took 156 from clementi and alighted somewhere where we thought was near the place. instead, we ended up walking around an area full of huge bungalows with swimming pools and multiple cars in their foyer. apparently, it was sixth avenue- the rich people’s turf. we were so out of place cann. gave up after walking around for abt one n a half hour. lucky us, we found the main road and a pathetic bustop. wanted to just take a bus and eat in town but nehh, we’re broke and damn exhausted. walked further down a bit and found mad jacks. lol. so yeah. had our dinner there instead of al-azhar. the food there cost us a bomb and seriosuly, it’s not that very delicious. i don’t know why many people are ranting about it. i think teh tarik has got better food than them. and it’s way cheaper too. uhhuhh. oh wells. experience luh ehh. …after the not-so-fulfilling meal, atisya came over to my crib to visit my family. it’s been really long since she actually last met them. and alhamdulillah despite the cramp environment, she adapted well. felt like we’re back to those primary school days when she would just come over to my house and play with my siblings and i. hehh. we had lots of fun and laughter in the house and gerl, i am really grateful to you for havng this night to share with. thanks babe. love youu.

ayg has guard duty today so he’s like still in camp. been having lots of guard duty these days and he’s been really tired. sighs. don’t worry, sabar okay. ader hikmah di sebalik semua dugaan dan hikmah itu akan datang biler kiter sabar dan redha ya? (:

goodnight world.

 

lost talent

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AyhPxrchntM

 tonight, i officially miss playing the piano.

sorry if i got you surprised but yes, i used to play the piano. started going for piano school at the age of seven but i had to quit at grade 5 when i was fourteen cos i couldnt juggle both academics and music school at the same time. now thinking about it, it’s been close to 6years since i last stopped. my left fingers have seriously lost its momentum. i can’t play the piano scales as fast and smooth as before. i still remember how my piano teacher used to scold me when i came for lesson without practising beforehand. still remember how proud she was when i did well for the practical exams. wow. those were the days when i thought i could be a part time piano teacher in the future. hmmm… and now, the piano at home is just collecting dust and i guess some of the keys are prolly in bad condition. sighs. listening to this guy’s ’beauty & the beast’ arrangement (link above) makes me miss playing the piano even more. his arrangement is beautiful, too beautiful i can cry. i really wanna go back to playing it and i’m gonna start by searching for my music sheets this weekend.

i’m sorry for leaving you alone for six long years. piano, i’m coming back for you.

light in my life

 Every moment spent with you is a wonderful time filled with lots of love and laughter. I can never fully explain the extent to how grateful I am to have you around. You are a blessing from Allah and a light in my life.

Your love for me astounds me. I wonder how I’m worthy of it, but I love you just as much.

i need REST

can somebody like burn down my school puhleasee? =(

school’s been a real pain in the butt. org penat giler, tak paham perrr. tsk

sighs. patience tasha. k la, bye nak sleeeep.

imam ashraf turns 14!

& so, i had accounting paper today. gagagagahh. seriously, i think my brain went bonkers. soo tricky. i spent the whole of last weekend at home just for this paper luhh. sheesh. okaay. maybe it wasn’t that tough. guess i just wasn’t that money smart enough? haha. yea. will work harder next time luhh. tsk. this sem is totally killing me. && with my current messed up body clock, i think i can drop dead anytime -.-

got a call from my grandma before the paper that my granduncle just passed away. inna lillah wa inna ilaihi raji’un. i was telling sam abt him just yesterday and wow, didn’t know his life story had to end today. inilah kelemahan kiter sebagai manusia yer. we know nothing of what’s coming. and that’s scary. astraghfirullah. hmmm. yup, so i rushed to ziarah the family after the paper and found my whole household already there, including wan who excused himsef from camp. Allahyarham was a great man. certainly left footprints in our family’s heart. semoga Allah menerima segala amal kebajikannya dan rohnya dicucuri rahmat. Amin.

anyway, HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY ASHRAF!

hello my sweet little brother(: it’s your birthday today! dah besar lah adik kakak. i wanna let you know, i am very proud to have a brother like you. so baik and alim. it’s difficult to find boys at ur age with a personality like yours tau. like ibu said, you can bimbing me already. hehehe. insyaAllah you’ll always be a good boy, get a good girl who will treat u right in the future and ehemm ehemm, jadi imam yer! AMIN. hehe. sorry kalau kakak banyak kacau or tak sengaje hurt ashraf in any way. very very sorry. i love all my adik2 equally so never think i love you less ya! HUGS. have a good one bro! happy birthday! lalalalala~